it's like.

like a chocolate that i have saved my money for for all these years which turns out to be stucked  in someone else's box.

like my long kept cookies on a jar that i finally decided to consume has already been consumed by someone you know. and you just can't blame that person because you seemed unselfish about it.

like a dress in a rack that you've been fitting your whole life; how much pounds to lose, what shoes to match, which set of jewelry to put on, what hairstyle to wear. and when you're all ready to buy the dress, someone much more lovelier than you are is fitting it, seemed to like it with no thoughts of ever leaving the shop without that dress.

like it was once you thought 'delaying gratification' and it kept on being delayed; through indefinite length of time.

i am not waiting. i am not standing by. i simply just can't find another thing to crave yet.

and all i can do, so far, is to wallow into this emotion.