... i am simply being one cruel and mean bitch.
when you're hurt, you feel hurt, you scream in pain, you think of hurting them back but to no avail. or you simply cry.
but this thing i do now is far from being 'hurt'. not even close to 'pretending to be not hurt' (though it may seem so). but, really, this is not me being hurt.
i am not trying to stay away from the memories of the past that i once considered important and unforgettable. i am not beating myself inside until my emotions are numb from the,supposedly, pain i 'should be' feeling then.
no. this is not 'my deffense mechanism' to protect myself from the devastation of such instances.
this is me grown tired of being nice to people who doesn't deserve it. this is me not caring about her. this is me living my life without worries.
this is me, now, a bitch especially formulated and intensified for her.
Lots of Love from the then-cynical + suicidal-no-more and positive non-bipolar ME,
kai
when you're hurt, you feel hurt, you scream in pain, you think of hurting them back but to no avail. or you simply cry.
but this thing i do now is far from being 'hurt'. not even close to 'pretending to be not hurt' (though it may seem so). but, really, this is not me being hurt.
i am not trying to stay away from the memories of the past that i once considered important and unforgettable. i am not beating myself inside until my emotions are numb from the,supposedly, pain i 'should be' feeling then.
no. this is not 'my deffense mechanism' to protect myself from the devastation of such instances.
this is me grown tired of being nice to people who doesn't deserve it. this is me not caring about her. this is me living my life without worries.
this is me, now, a bitch especially formulated and intensified for her.
Lots of Love from the then-cynical + suicidal-no-more and positive non-bipolar ME,
kai
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